TINAS TRANSGENDER WORLD

"Out Of The Darkness And Into The Light."

Its the strangest feeling to wake in a hospital bed with more pipes and tubes stuck in you and when you finally come to your censes ,you realise wear you are and feel like you have just been through amageddon .

But thats prity much how i felt ,with the oxygen mask on my face and not being able to breath through my nose with packing up my nostrills and a cast on my nose ,and more bandages on my head and face than than somthing thats just been unearthed from some egyptian tomb .

I was in and out of conciousness for most of the time and with a steady procession of nurses popping in and out and a couple of visets from dr chettawut to check me out ,i dont know really wear the 3 days went .

Well sunday morning came round and after a viset from dr chettawuts staff with was might unusual on a sunday ,as thats the one day they dont normally viset ,it was decided that i could be moved back to the baan siri hotel that evening .

The prospect of getting out the hospital excited me ,and the day quickly went bye and before i knew it i was being asked to get ready to leave ,the only problem being my eyes ,i couldant see through one and the other was partly shut .

Its totally understandable now how a blind or partially sighted person must feel because being so bad with my eyes it certainly gives you an insight into this .

Nut arrived that evening and with dr chettawuts other girl ( i cant remember her name ) they got me into a wheel chair and headed out to the car ,and once there they installed me in the fron passenger seat ,and reclined it for me ,so it was almost in a bed position .

Ididant see a thing all the way back to the hotel ,it was a world of just sound and smells ,no vision at all ,and it seemed like a journey that lasted for ever .

Once back at the baan siri they managed to get me up in to the lift and into my room ,and into bed .

The next couple of days were spent prity much feeling really out of sorts with hardly any vision and now they had also put a pressure bandage round my jaw and chin .

Everytime i tried to get up ,i just felt so dizzy with my head spinning round ,and with my nose blocked up it was so hard to breath ,and to try and eat and drink was really dificult as your only air way was through your mouth and block this with food or drink and it was dificult to breath

One doesant realise how important a persons eyes are ,it you kinda take it for granted that the vision your used to is there ,and with myself now it was down to useing saline solution on a swab and keep cleaning the eyes out and the sticky mess glueing them together ,coupled with the swelling ,i looked a right sight .

The next problem to crop up was with my room mate Peta ,she had a call from home saying one of her two girls had a medical emergancy and was in intensive care ,so she quickly had to make arrangements to leave and fly back to australia on the next available flight ,this was quite a blow to me ,but obviously a thing she needed to do ,as her family comes first .          This kinda left me on my own and after 15 hours of ffs surgery i felt rather vunarable and slightly upset .

When Nut came in the next day she could see i was slightly upset and she sat at the side of me and i kinda broke down in tears and explained the cituation to her ,she put her arm round me and said Tina dont worry we are all hear for you and your not alone at all ,after a a couple of minets she said let me make a phone call to my sister ,witch she did ,and she asked me if i would like her to take me out and about in bangkok this comeing saturday ( Nuts sister is a teacher hear in bangkok ) ., that sounded good to me .

Also Nut said i will give my one day up this coming sunday and take you out with my family ,my husband and 4 year old daughter ,would you like that ?      the kindness felt overwhelming towards me and i gave her a massive hug and thanked her from my heart .

With the packing out my nose now and the cast off ,it was very much more easy to breath now ,and that made me feel alot better .

Over my period there i had met Vicky from Wales and she decided to stay on a couple of extra days to be with me ,because she was heading on to Pattaya for a short holiday and break before heading back to the uk ,and we spent many hours chatting about varoius things and i know these chats helped her alot with her own decisions regarding her own transition .

Further down the corridor was another girl who at that point i didant realise how good freinds we would become and that was Jeanette from Finland ,and as my story progresses ,Jeanette and myself become prity close and go and do everthing together .

Please remember these photos were taken just a week after 15 hours of ffs surgery and my face is badly swollen and bruised

After we had been all over the MBK Centre i mentioned to Doom that i needed to get my nails infilled and after looking round there and a couple of phone calls from Doom to ask if there was any nail places we decided to head back to the Seacon Centre ,and we caught the sky train back to on nut and got a taxi from there to seacon square .

During the week i had managed somehow to melt down my electric kettle in my hotel room ,i guess it was forgetting to switch it off and it boiled dry and melted it down ,so also a call to tesco was in order to buy another one .

The next two photos show us at seacon getting my infills done there .

After i had gotten my nails done i asked Doom if she fancied a meal and she said ok ,so i took her to sizlers and treated her to what ever she wanted to eat ,and she took full advantage of the free buffet and then had a pork meal and and for a small lady she could sure put plenty of food away .

After that we headed off to Tesco bought the bits i needed including a new toaster and by now the time was getting on so starting to feel tired i decided to head back to the hotel ,and told Doom i would be ok ,but no she insisted on travelling back with me to see me back and carry my shopping .

We got back to the siri and after dropping my stuff off in my room i gave her a massive hug and thanked her for the great day she had shown me round bangkok ,and i gave her the taxi fare home .

After a great day yesterday with Nuts sister ,right on time Nut arrived to collect me at the baan siri and came upto my hotel room to collect me .

Today we were going to viset the Anciant City and also the Crocodile Farm And Zoo .          We headed down stairs and waiting in the car park was Nuts husband and wonderfull young daughter only 4 years old , the car looked recognisable and it turned out to be one of dr chettawuts cars he had borrowed us for the day out .       The following photos and wright up are from the day out ( ps remember im prity swollen and bruised still )

What a wonderful place so many great attractions and wonderful buildings to see .

We all got back into the car and headed for the Crocodile Farm & Zoo next ,this was just a 15-20 drive away ,and the following photos show what we saw there .

Well it was a great show ,those guys sticking there heads in the mouths of those crocks made me shudder.

After the show we went and got an ice cream ,and i managed to bite my bottom lip and make it blead ,do to the fact of all the numbness on the bottom lip and down below .

All in all a really great day ,and i cant thank this wonderful family enough for letting me share there sunday with them on this wonderful day in bangkok in april 2007 .

To read Tinas FFS part four please click on the link below .

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To read the rest of my FFS story

Please go to Tinas FFS Part 4