TINAS TRANSGENDER WORLD

Well it was Tuesday the 24th of January 2006 ,the big day i had waited for most of my life . With my little case packed up ready and only liquid i could take because of my clensing routeen and after several trips to the toilet ,we hung around and waited for my lift to the hospital to be admitted for my week long stay for my gender reasignment operation with dr chettawut.    It got to about late morning and we had a call on our room phone to say the driver had come to collect me ,at this point a thousand things kinda flash through your mind i guess ,there was no going back now .    We made our way down to the lobby of the hotel and dr chettawuts driver placed my case in the boot of the car ,and off we went to the vibraham hospital .

Well after a short ride to the hospital we went inside and sat in the main seating area ,paula myself and dr chettawuts girl aid

The hospital was very clean and you could see your face almost in the plished floor

We sat there a while and certain forms were brought to me to sign ,and i awaited the tests i was told i was going to have done. Eventually i was led off to a side room and bloods were taken ,and also an ECG done,and they took my weight as well and blood presure

Its a kind of strange eary feeling that you are only hours after being admitted to having a gender reasignment and having your manhood converted perminantly into a neo vagina ,well its what i always wanted so i was happy

Finally i was taken up the escilator and then in a lift onto a ward that consisted of private rooms . We entered a room number 811,and paula and myself talked and had that big emotional good bye thing ,as paula left one of the nurses bought me a bowl of soup that was covered in cling film to keep it warm .       Iwas instructed next just to rest ,and was given two small pills to take ,on enquiring what they were ,i was told laxatives ,and the nurse poured me a glass of ice cold water from the refrigerator in the room and i took the pills

Ilooked at my watch and the time read 1-50 pm ,and i started to get changed into my two peice hospital garments provided for me ,after i decided to lay on the bed and relax with my silk dressing gown /robe i bought with me .   When i unpacked my little mascot tigeress was put just opersite me in the room ,and i lay there and glanced across at my good luck charm complete with a four leaved clover round its neck ,and just smiled

A thing that amused me was the name of the hospital printed on the bed sheets ,so i thought i would get a photo as a momento of being there

The following photo is a photo of the room i would make my home for the next 7 days or so

I knew the only way i would remember all this ,would be to make notes and i had a little notepad and pen with me ,and recorded down almost everthing that happened to me .     Hear at the hospital these thai nureses are so petite and always hear with a freindly smile for you ,and im sure that helped alot to be honest

At about 2-45 pm a nurse bought me a small container for a urine sample ,and after i just felt like laying back and dozing ,i was just drifting nicely when a nurse came in 5 minets later with a kidney shaped dish and a razor ,i couldant really understand what she said to me ,but i just guessed she wanted to shave my perinium down below ,the first of the two times it was done .

She told me just lay back ,open your legs ,and she smiled at me because you see i had already taken alot of the genital hair away from down below ,and i guess she figured it wasant gonna be sutch a big job for her to finish me off afterall .

The nurse put on a pair of latex gloves and proceded to soap me up down below and shaved all my lower region .       Next came the joy ( jesus ) of this bag of liquid she had with her ,she told me to turn over and positioned a pipe right up my rectom area ,after saying " ok -1-2-3 ",the pipe slid in and the liquid  was pumped up my rectom via the tube , it quickly disapeared inside . Well the nurse left and i lay back wondering what to expect next ,and ho boy with a quick dash i headed streight for the bathroom area and quickly pulled down my bottom garments just in time ,with out warning what seemed like a steady flow of what seemed like putrid liquid made its way out of me with a gugling sound .     Isat there what i figured was about 15 minets and gradully the liquid kept coming from me . After a while i asumed the liquid had stopped so i made my way back to my bed ,only to make a quick dash back to that toilet seat in the bathroom again . After a while i asumed what was gonna come out had done and made my way back to my bed to rest .                 Right now its 3-30 pm and im laying back on my bed feeling quite calm really ,and waiting for the next suprise to happen .       At 4-30 the next little revalation accured ,two nurses entered my room and told me i was moving rooms ,after a short chat with them i saw the wheel chair and the shopping trolly they had with them . Itold them i had unpacked hear and was all set up room wise ,but it made no diferance they just started loading all my things up into the trolly and told me get in the wheel chair ,alot of my nelongings went streight into a large white plasic bag and into the trolly . So it looked like i was on the move ,thank goodness the toilet thing was over before as i think if they had moved me too soon they would have had a mighty big mess to clean up . We left the old room and entered an elivator onto a new floor around the otherside of the hospital ,the new room number turned out to be room 1010.      Afew minets later another nurse arrived with a glass of liquid and i was told to drink it down , i asked her if this was called SWIFT she nodded at me ,and asked her how fast will it work ?, she commented maby 15 minets , so im wrighting this now and just waiting for the next little suprise to happen .

Well its about 9pm hear and im standing looking off the balcony over the bangkok skyline at night ,im several floors up and there was quite a good view both ways .              The next two photos are the view both ways

Well i came back into my room off the balcany ,got onto my bed and the nurse came in and gave me a pill in a small container ,i asked her was it a sleeping pill ,she replied yes .   Iwasant sure if it would knock me out and i knew i had to ring paula to let her know that i had changed rooms at the hospital ,so i got my adress and phone number book out ,but couldant find the hotel number ,but i remembered i had one of those little cards from the baan siri hotel with me ,so after i found it i dialed the number from my mobile cell phone and got through and explained i had been moved to another room on a diferant floor at the hospital ,she thanked me and i rang off .   Laying hear on the bed wondering if the pill was gonna knock me out i glanced out the window and down below it was dark and a kind of disney land out there a glittering oasis of lights and trafic on what was a sort of six lain highway right down below .         Ilay there quite a while with no signs of wanting to drop off to sleep at all ,and glanced over the room across at my mascot still sitting on the tv set facing me ,the tiger represents a kity and the name tigeress was my old handle on aff the chat room along while back ,so i guess this tigeress is my good luck charm and mascot rolled into one

Wednesday 25/01/06 My S.R.S Day

From a deep sleep i was awoken and the first words i herd were " im sorry ,im sorry " two nurses had come in and woke me from my sleep that i had finally been able to sink into, and i glanced at the time and it was only 6 am in the morning of my srs day ,the nurses were there to do my pulse and blood presure & tempreture, and i must have seemed at first glace slightly startled because of being woken from the sleep i desprately needed .   Shortly after a nurse came in again carring the kidney shaped dish and armed with the razor again ,my thoughts were omg another shaving down below ,anyway i stretched out and beared my underside once more and she laughed and joked with me and i guess the light heartedness helped alot ,at least it took my mind off what was about to happen that day later on

Iknew i wouldant be able to sleep again so i made my way to the bathroom to wash and clean my teeth ,and generally freshen myself up the best i could .  I glanced at the back of the washbasin and steared at two little moving objects walking around my toiletries ,and after closer inspection discovered they were two tiny red ants ,they had found a way in there through a tiny hole on the corner of the wall just next to the tiling round the wash basin ,jesus these were somthing i never expected to see there ,anyway i decided the day was gonna be to big to let these worry me at all,and just carried on with my clean up .                        My thoughts now went towards how the day would go for me ,and i guess no person would be totally worry free at this stage ,you have to be made of stone not to worry .         Well it was hear ,the door opened and a nurse and porter came in to my room ,the time was about 10-50 am ,and i was loaded in the wheel chair and taken to the operating theatre .      Its hard to describe at this point what goes rushing round and through your mind ,but all i knew now was this mamoth thing was about to happen to me .       After negotiating several coridors and rooms and a lift ,we finally ended up in that room that was gonna deliver my womanhood the theatre . Ijust lay there hardly dearing to open my eyes ,i took a peek just quickly and saw a guy next to me and he said after lifting my hand and sqeezing it gently to reasure me ,we are gonna put a needle in your hand at the back and also into your spine ,this went without an hitch ,and the kind words uttered to me Tina are you ready ,with a large gulp of air and a second or two of hesitation ,i replyed yes im ready ,go for it .      He undid the valve on the pipe in my arm and just a few seconds later i was in ablivian ,i was gone ,totally in a world of endless sleep and nothingness ,( my srs was underway )

Well a couple of days just slid bye and of course my sis from dallas texas was the first to be bye myside ,paula had brought alot of extra bits in for me ,ho boy did i look rough ,but i just tried to tell myself im gonna really i had just been through a major op

Ilifted the bed sheets so paula could see all the pipes and tubes coming out of me ,i asked her if she could stay as long as possible because i knew it was gonna be a long few days in hear ,and the company made it all that bit easyer and passed the time on better

While paula was there they came in and did one of the several stats checks they made daily .ie blood presure pulse and tempreture .   Its crazy really but the equipment they used seemed slightly out the ark you might say ,but never the less it did its job ,and it did what it was designed to do

Ithink really if i hadent writen some notes on this all happening i would have never remembered im sure ,because wether it was the morphine or the other drugs ,most of the first couple of days after my srs seemed to be just a blur ,somthing my mind never stored really .       Paula had bought the champeign with her and my srs ring and necklace ,but after concideration we decided to put of the celibratery drink and the jewelry presentation till i was in better shape ,and i sugested throwing a little party in our room after i got out the hospital ( the following photos show the champeign and my ring and necklace )

This was the bottle of pink champeign i bought at heathrow airport on my way in to thailand

And my photo with tigeress

With my srs rings and also my necklace .    Ihad had the necklace made of 18carret gold engraved with my initials on one side ,and srs thailand 25.01.06 on the other side ,a fitting momento of the day i collected my dream

The next photo is a picture of the nurses myself and tigeress ,my mascot

My next visetor wasant long in coming ,and it was so nice to see a freindly face ,it was my freind Claudia Kenworthy ,a transsexual doctor from the USA she was hear as suport for Sherri another of my freinds from dr chettawuts girls club who was having her srs the day after me ,and infact just a few rooms away down the coridoor

My next visetor turned out to be Ruth another lady who had had her srs before i got hear and was well on the way to her recovery . A real cool lady who after i get out hear helped me in ways ill tell you about later ,but i did admire her courage to be hear on here own from the same country as myself the uk ,and endure her srs  alone

One of the things that struck me was how petite and doll like the thai nurses were ,im 5 ft 10" tall and i towered above them all

At about 11.45 that day dr chettawut came round to check me out ,and told me my srs took 7.1/2 hours of surgery to do ,and apart from alot of blood there were no complications with my surgery ,and i told him i was so pleased he hadant have to take extra skin from my tummy region for donation material . Iasked when the pipes would be removed he said that he would come back later in the week and remove my packing and they would take the pipes and cathetor out for me , boy would i be glad to see the end of these all these pipes and the endless ice packs shoved between my legs .       Iwas told it would probably be next monday the day i would be able the leave the hospital ,so i still had a few days to go ,including the weekend to get through

Well its saturday morning hear,and its very early about 5-30am and streight away the nurses were in my room tidying and doing my stats.    Im really hoping within the next two days they are gonna let me at least get out of bed,im sure tired of just laying hear.  Last nights treat was yogart for my meal it doesant sound much but after only having liquid for the last week it was just great, and that cheered me up alot.   Later that day dr chettawut came to see me and told me that in the next day or so i could have the packing removed from my vagina , but also insisted i take it very easy or i was asking for trouble .                   Its sunday morning now and ive had all the nurses round doing all the normal checks on me ,and i was alowed to have some toast today, and my faverate nurse came round to give me a bed bath ,and as usual seemed quite amused by my breasts .       Paula came as usual and i must say it was nice to see her by my bedside.      Its very posible they might take my packing out today , i really hope so.   The nurse poped in and asked me if i was hungry, so i ordered some more toast and coffee .       It was nice to at least get somthing more solid inside me after that liquid diet for a week .   The rest of the day slipped away and after what seemed like endless hours im fully awake and its only 11-45 on the sunday evening ,and im starting to get tired and bored of the whole hospital thing to be honest .        Well monday morning finally got hear and and its 5-35 am hear and ive kinda dozed on and off all night .   Two nurses have just been in to do my pulse and tempreture and to empty my pee from the pee bag fed by the cathetor still in me .      Ive sorta got my fingers crossed im gonna see some action today ,im more than readyto get out this bed ,it just feels like the matress is made of iron ill tell you.    later that day my wish came true and the dr chettawut came with his staff and a nurse and they took out the packing and the pipes witch included the cathetor from me . The removal of the cathetor wasant bad ,but when they took the other tubes out i thought jesus im gonna hit the ceiling ,the pain litterally shot through me down below .    Then came the words i wanted to hear , lay back take it easy and if you can pee-pee  you can leave later today .      I sort of figured that i would call paula and tell her the news ,and all i needed to do was to pee from the new parts created by dr chettawut , paula said great tina ill be up later to collect you and escort you back to the hotel .      An hour or so later i had the incling that maby if i sat on the toilet i might be able to pee and with legs like jelly i made my way to the bathroom ,grasping onto as many things as i could because my legs felt like they could give way on me .  Ieventually made it there ,and sat a while pushed alittle ,and there it was my first urination as a female ,done and dusted .      I made my way back to the bed rang the buzza and a nurse came in and i said ok ive managed to do a pee-pee ,she smiled and so ok you can leave later today ,jesus was i pleased .   My next thoughts were to get all my stuff packed up in my little case ,and to make sure i hadant left anything behind in the room .     Ashort while later paula arrived ,gave me a hug and said sis you done it ,im proud of ya sis . We sat and waited to be collected in the wheel chair to go down through the hospital to the car parking area . A short while later 3 people arrived one was a hospital porter to push my wheel chair out of the room . Finally i could say bye bye to the room i had been in for over a week now .

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